If only...there was a rewind button...

Hello!!
I watched the movie Action Replayy last night and that's the reason why
this post happened. No, this is not going to be another review of the
movie. You would agree with me that there is nothing in the movie
worth writing about! But still, it made me think. If I had a time
machine, although mine would be state of the art no noise Rolls Royce
engined star trek kind of machine and not the juvenile bling bling from
the movie, what would I do? Admittedly, the first thing I would do is
go back and unwatch the movie. That aside, what would I want to change
in my life and why? There are innumerable times I must have said, if
only...If only I had done this, decided that, gone there, spoken these
words...along with if only I was a billionairess etc. Life doesn't give
us multiple chances. A lot of times, you choose one road and your life
takes a different shape than if you had chosen another road. Every
fork is different and you almost never reach the same fork again. I
look back into all such junctures in my life and why I did what I did,
what would I have changed and where would I be if it was things were
different.From what university, post grad, job, location, everything
could have been different.
So I decide to spend sometime evaluating
the whats, whys and hows of each stage. Strangely, at each stage, much
as I would like to believe it was my choice, it really wasn't a choice
at all. The only choice I had was either do this or do nothing. Doing
nothing has never been appealing ',so well, I did what I did. The
illusion of control that one has over one's life is probably what
causes one so much angst and heartache. 'If I choose to live in
Mumbai, my life is going to be one long traffic jam'. 'If I choose to
live in London, my life will be ruled by tube strikes and engineering
works' My question then is how different are they? How does it matter?In both instances you reach your destination much later than planned.
So is the case with so many other things. The point being, as men and women of this world, we might choose our own different journeys, but our destinations are kind of predetermined. No matter what one does, in the long run, we are all dead:) and then, is it all much ado over nothing? I keep thinking...

Until next time.